Thursday, 18 December 2014

An Odd Coincidence

2 years ago today I was fast asleep having the bastard c cut out of me. Today, I just got handed my P45....
Easier said than done, but rather than being sad about this odd coincidence, I am going to (try to) look at it as both being about new starts....

Tuesday, 9 December 2014

Time to Fly

adjective: redundant
not or no longer needed or useful; superfluous.

Sad news. I didn't get a job in the new company. I'm being made redundant as of Christmas Eve... Happy Christmas to me! My head is all over the place at the moment. If I am truly honest with myself, the journey to NW London would have been horrible, about 2 hours each way. But I want to be wanted. It's so hard. People say that I shouldn't take it personally, it's not me that's not wanted any longer, it's my role. But that's so much easier said than done. I've worked for my current company for 7 years and I almost feel like I'm in mourning for my work family. I will miss the camaraderie and friendship more than anything, but if I reflect honestly, it's not been the same place for a few years now. It's scary to be pushed rather than to jump but maybe it's all for the best. Let's see what the future brings. As this blog shows, I've faced far scarier things in my life so far!

Qué Será Será

Today I find out if I have a job at the new company or not. I'm anxious, nervous and apprehensive. I hate other people holding the cards in my life. If I do get a job there then it will be an exciting new change and if I don't then it will also be an exciting new change.